Apr 20, 2010
To went for check up again lala once again waited for hoursss. Today talk to Dawn and enuice and guess what both of them tell me news the news is sooo "good" untill mum almost can't tahan. They told us that they are not sure how much more longer my body can take it cause my HPA1C can getting lower lower and lower. By the way HPA1C is my overall blood sugar for the pass 3 month. They are asking for about 7.2 and i got 6 which is below then normal. My HPA1C drop which mean my hypo is coming more and more and it will be normal to see my having hypo more and more. If i did not forget when HPA1C drop till 5 or 4 i will be going into coma lala yes coma ^^. Then that time will can sleep for long hourss liao no matter how noisy also don't need to wake up no matter how to shake also don't have to wake up liao. When Dawn and Enuice tell me i was smiling to them but mum was like holding to it tear liao. Then the two of them was like shock seeing me smiling after know this. I was like already getting ready liao lor Dawn already like slowly hint me at the last check up liao. I did remeneber when my last check up someone ask me what the doctor say liao. I tell the person i am ok but not going to live for long but the person took it as i was saying a joke. If anyone of you was my reader do own up don remeneber who is it liao i only remeneber it a guy. They also tell me that i will tend to get thing mix up very easy this time i don remeneber what is the reason liao they tell me alot of stuff but i did not remeneber alot. I only remener Enuice asking me about if i got girlfriend a not?? Then i was like think great must be mum doing all the small small action again. My answer for that question guess what did i say? My answer is I did not say anything and change the topic to something else. Actuclly Enuice already is good to me liao she did not go back to the girlfriend topic after i try to change to something else. Today in school i also get to act normally not showing any weird stuff about the check up. Then all the way untill i was alone then i started to act in normal. My acting very good hor really can go be god of movie liao. just now was sitting under open air place waiting of it to rain but it did not rain at all. When i needed rain there is no rain, when i don't need a rain the rain came down so big. I sit at outside untill 7plus around 7:45. Don't know where to go jusst don't feel like going home don't want to see mum or later she sad again. But when i went back home i saw no one at home too which mean no dinner again and have to eat bread for dinner. But like that also good la don't need to face anyone. Don't need to let people see the weaker side of me although alot people see before liao but they also long time no see le so better don't see. But during i bath half way mum came back liao so after i bath hao the first thing i did was to rush to my room and lock myself up telling them i wanted to sleep liao don't distrub me. Now around me was all dark the only light was coming out from me lappy did not even on my tv to watch tv show at all. Suddenly felt so peaceful no sound no nothing even my sister also did not come knocking on my door. Sitting on my bed facing the 4 wall of my room was so relaxing letting my mind went blank not thinking of anything. Shall here with some photo and words. BYE...
The trust you gave me i destroy it with my own hand. Just like what the photo said Trust is like a paper once it's crumpled it can't be perfect again. All i can say is sorry...
It's tough when someone special starts to ignore you. But it's even tougher to pretend that you don't mind about it.
DunMakeEmptyPromises.EspeciallyWhenYouCan'tDoIt.*
